Oh hello there!

Happy 20 days since my last blog post! Woah! A ton has happened in these 20 days. Let's see...

• I've danced a ton
• Worked a ton
• Pushed myself in all my classes
• Filed my taxes (that's always fun...)

Hmm... is there anything else...? Oh that's right... I had my first audition for college. 

Woah.

It really wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. I was in and out in about an hour and a half. I haven't decided if that was good or bad for my chances yet... But nonetheless, I sit and wait. This whole college process is just waiting. "Oh you've waited your whole life to apply for college? Waited your whole life for the chance to leave your boring town? Sorry. Need to wait just a little bit longer." Cool. 

I don't mind too much. I fill the days with homework, work, dance, and music. It's really wonderful.

So here I am on the eve of my second and final college audition and I can't help but reflect back to last Saturday.

10:30am - Dance. All ballet. The other 5 students = years of ballet. Courtney = none. Awesome. I tried my hardest. I really did, but I just knew all the other kids were nailing this with ease. Oh well. I went, did what I could, and left. 

11am - Rehearsal. My accompanist was really nice. We worked well together and all moved smoothly there.

11:15am - Vocal Audition. That was interesting. I didn't expect the vocal director to work with me a little bit afterwards. But she did. I think my songs were okay. I could have done much much better. Hopefully it was just nerves and they understand that :/

11:30am - Monologues. If there's one thing I know I can do it's acting. I've been acting longer than I've been singing and I have worked so much on characters and voice. But my first monologue was too fast and quiet. Again, hopefully just nerves. My second monologue was sad, but I needed to project. I think I did fairly well at keeping the emotion the same while just increasing the volume. 

Overall, I think my audition was okay. I just need to know whether they want me or not. Because I want them. There are so many conflicting things in my brain, but the one thing that stands out clearly is where I want to go to school. Who knows though? I may re-fall in love with Pace this weekend, but Wilkes feels comfortable. Wilkes feels wonderful. 

So with that, I go to rest up before leaving for New York City in the morning. I just hope there is a letter waiting for me when I return home...

xoxo Courtney 

Waiting.

That's essentially what you spend most of your Senior year doing... Constant waiting. Waiting for this school to accept you... waiting for this school to give you money...waiting for the right prom date... waiting for the school to finally give you food you can eat! ( Okay, maybe this one is just me, but still) ...or just waiting for the year to end and your life to begin. I've just been waiting.
I finished sending in my college applications at the end of November, the Sunday before Thanksgiving to be exact. And ever since then, it has been the waiting game. Wilkes answered me... Rhode Island answered me... but where was Pace's decision? HELLO TOP SCHOOL OF MY DREAMS I'M WAITING HERE! It sucked. I spent all of my winter vacation just waiting and crying. I also had some medical issues... but still, I was just stuck waiting. Until I realized that I had received an e-mail saying their offices would be closed until January 2nd... Whoops... I should have done something all of vacation... instead of... waiting.
Another thing I've waited for this year is the school musical. The 25th Annual Putnam County Spelling Bee finally opens tomorrow. The show is wonderful, the cast is magical, and the friendships are indescribable. But last Monday I went to the Emergency Room and they told me I had... pneumonia. "No I don't." Those were the exact words from my mouth. I had worked so hard for the show, and now, to lose my voice my breath capacity, and let alone control of how I felt, I felt miserable. I cried. Right then and there. The doctor didn't know what was happening... I quickly got on antibiotics, spent my first overnight in a hospital and went home on Tuesday, late Tuesday. I was back in school on Thursday and my voice remained hidden. Finally this past weekend, it came back. Everything. My belt, my legit, and my vibrato... all of them were back. I hope they enjoyed their vacation because that is last one they will take for a very long time...
So today, I came home before heading off to dance and found a letter on the table. An envelope. Not a packet. Just an envelope. My heart dropped. I almost asked my grandmother to leave the room and let me read it, but thank goodness she was there. Pace University: Wait-listed. More waiting? Are you kidding me? I've had my audition scheduled since before Christmas and I just want to go to this school. The location, the program, the people, and the vibe are everything I want in a school! I just want to go. I have a poster on my wall that Pace sent me... "Now Starring: Courtney L... at Pace University" in the middle of Times Square. I look at it every night and I wait. I wait for the future, I dream of the future. My future is there. But this whole waiting thing is getting old...

Very Exciting Birthday week!!

Hello there everyone! It has been less than a month since I last posted, which is good! It means I'm not really a slacker at blogging anymore. I am writing today to tell of my very exciting news. 

I'm turning eighteen.

Wow.

18.

FINALLY!

It's only taken about eighteen years to get here, so I'm very happy that it is happening! :P Typically, as lame as it sounds, I celebrate birthday week. A week where I am invincible and nothing can bring me down. 

Sunday: Work, but it really wasn't that bad. I got to be in the smoke shop and not have to do too much time on express. Lovely.

Monday: (Wait, that was only yesterday?!) I, yes I, got accepted to college!!! AHHH!!! 

Wilkes University has accepted me into the school, just not the program yet. But still, the thrill you get once you finally have an idea of something you can do next year is astounding. It feels like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders and everything is going to be okay. At least until audition stress kicks in in about 3-4 weeks... But nevertheless I have recieved $10,000 a year to attend :D Thank goodness I kept my grades up! So make sure you do that too ( if any younger people read this) I automatically qualified for money. Awesome.

Tuesday: Not an amazing day, but not awful either. Let's just leave it at that. Although a shout out must go out to.... LEAWNDRA!!! HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY BABE!! 

Tomorrow: I have dance class, which is always good.

Thursday: Going out to dinner after rehearsal with Leawndra and Taylor to celebrate Leawndra and I's birthdays!

Friday: BIRTHDAY!!! Everyone is coming over for cake and fun! Plus, I will be doing all of the fun things you get to do when you're 18. Kinda.

Saturday:... I'M GOING TO NEW YORK CITY!!! My favorite place in the whole wide world. Everything is magical and I cannot wait to go ice skating, and see a show, and and and gah! I love it. We're leaving early Saturday and hopefully picking up my best friend from UCONN so she can stay the night with us! It is going to be magical <3

That's all I have for you today! Remember, stay healthy, stay happy, and stay beautiful!

<3

Courtney :D

Sometimes Saturday...?

Yesterday was super duper busy. I worked from 9-3, then went to a birthday party until 9:30! None of us expected to stay that late, but it was worth it. To hang out with my friends who I haven't seen all summer, amazing. It was basically the same as every year. But I like that. I like that we have a tradition. That it always happens.
I got pizza! his mom ordered me a gluten-free pizza from the local pizza shop. I was super happy. I ate more pizza than anyone else. Oh well.
I also(hopefully) finished my college essay on Wednesday. What I am not a fan of is the limit. I had 795 words written and a conclusion to still go, and Pace's maximum is 700. I was so aggravated. Needless to say, I hope the end doesn't sound too thrown together. I tried to make it so it flowed. Here's to hoping!
I MUST give a shout out today to St. Julien Macaroons . A local macaroons shop that has wonderful cookies :) Their no flour, no fillers, and NO COCONUT ( i was shocked) macaroons are super sweet and delicious. I think I have eaten half the tub in just two days! Probably not a good thing, now I should go to the gym :P Order some for yourself on their website and see for yourself!
Today is going to be me just kind of realaxing. Maybe do some errands before work. Who knows.
I do know one thing... I'm making Asian Hamburger Helper for lunch :)
Until Monday!
<3

Woah! Wednesday.

Time is flying this summer. It truly is. Well. Except for this week. This week is all about relaxing and figuring out college stuff. The dreaded college application process has already begun in my mind. While my friends are out having fun at the beach or playing video games, I'm at home scouring the four colleges I'm applying to's websites. They are as follows.( In order of really like and not so much)
Pace University~ The New York City campus.
Rhode Island College.
Wilkes University.
Plymouth State University.
I have toured three out of the four but plan on getting to Wilkes University soon. It's right near my family in Pennsylvania, so it will be nice to have some family close.
Each school has their pros and their cons. But Pace is in the lead. So today, I focus on my college essay.
The college essay, I'm finding, is the hardest part of the process. I have already written a rough draft and had my previous English teacher read it and give her feedback. I recently got it back in the mail and was heartbroken. I thought I had a good idea for an essay. I thought it was developed enough, at that moment, to be a good rough draft. Essentially, it was crap. Awesome. I'm keeping my topic. But she was able to give me a question that relates to my topic, therefore, I should be able to form a better outline and essay. That is what today's focus will be on. Writing the essay.
Wish me luck!
:)