- I've danced a ton
- Worked a ton
- Pushed myself in all my classes
- Filed my taxes (that's always fun...)
Hmm... is there anything else...? Oh that's right... I had my first audition for college.
Woah.
It really wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. I was in and out in about an hour and a half. I haven't decided if that was good or bad for my chances yet... But nonetheless, I sit and wait. This whole college process is just waiting. "Oh you've waited your whole life to apply for college? Waited your whole life for the chance to leave your boring town? Sorry. Need to wait just a little bit longer." Cool.
I don't mind too much. I fill the days with homework, work, dance, and music. It's really wonderful.
So here I am on the eve of my second and final college audition and I can't help but reflect back to last Saturday.
10:30am - Dance. All ballet. The other 5 students = years of ballet. Courtney = none. Awesome. I tried my hardest. I really did, but I just knew all the other kids were nailing this with ease. Oh well. I went, did what I could, and left.
11am - Rehearsal. My accompanist was really nice. We worked well together and all moved smoothly there.
11:15am - Vocal Audition. That was interesting. I didn't expect the vocal director to work with me a little bit afterwards. But she did. I think my songs were okay. I could have done much much better. Hopefully it was just nerves and they understand that :/
11:30am - Monologues. If there's one thing I know I can do it's acting. I've been acting longer than I've been singing and I have worked so much on characters and voice. But my first monologue was too fast and quiet. Again, hopefully just nerves. My second monologue was sad, but I needed to project. I think I did fairly well at keeping the emotion the same while just increasing the volume.
Overall, I think my audition was okay. I just need to know whether they want me or not. Because I want them. There are so many conflicting things in my brain, but the one thing that stands out clearly is where I want to go to school. Who knows though? I may re-fall in love with Pace this weekend, but Wilkes feels comfortable. Wilkes feels wonderful.
So with that, I go to rest up before leaving for New York City in the morning. I just hope there is a letter waiting for me when I return home...
xoxo Courtney
